Friday, November 20, 2009

magnetic resonance imaging

dear little leah,

tuesday was a first for all of us. on tuesday, you had your first {and hopefully your last} mri. because you're only two and not many two year olds can sit completely and perfectly still for an hour, the doctors and nurses had to put you under general anesthesia.

that's a scary thing.

but you did an amazing. job.

first of all, three cheers for making it through the morning before all this mri business even started. i'm not sure whose idea it was to make a two year old get an mri at 2:00pm, but i'm pretty sure they never consulted anyone with a toddler first. we were under strict instructions to feed you only clear liquids {plain jell-o was also permitted} until 11am and then stop feeding you completely. have they met you? you follow in my footsteps: you love to eat. it was painful for me to not feed you for that long. i decided to not eat as well just so i could feel your pain. you're welcome.
because the mri was at 2pm, we had to be at the hospital at 12:30. do you see a problem here? 12:30. naptime. yah. you don't do well without sleep. that has been proven in the last two months. you were fine when we walked into the hospital. they gave us all stickers to wear. but you quickly lost it after that.doesn't daddy look amused in this picture?

after we got you dressed in your cute little gown {remind me again how i forgot to take it home with us}, your friend kathy joined us. kathy is in our ward and she's also the lds chaplain at stanford hospital. she loves you. and you love her. she calmed you down in three seconds flat. it was incredible!

after you were calm, a really nice nurse came in and explained everything to us. we walked to another room where they got some of your health history and then gave you some versed orally. that means through your mouth. sorry, no big words here. the nurse said versed either makes you sleepy or silly. i guessed you'd choose silly. i guessed wrong. you were one sleepy leah!after you were sleepy enough, daddy carried you to another room where they gave you this "watermelon gas" to put you completely out. that's when i lost it.

i tried to cry quietly. the nurse called me out on it. and then it was all over. she asked if i wanted to kiss you and then say goodbye. um, yes, but not to the latter. it was so strange to see you so still on that bed with a mask on your face. i knew you were sleeping...but not because you were tired. i was scared. even though i knew you'd be okay. i was scared.

good thing you were brave.

daddy and i went to the cafeteria while you endured who knows what. at least you won't remember it right?

about 45 minutes later, they called us back to see you. you were OUT. out i tell ya! i think two months of no sleeping finally caught up with you. when we finally aroused you enough to partake of our popsicles and apple juice, we got you dressed and brought you home. you kept pulling the funniest faces. included this one with your lips:
you sleepily sat on the couch with daddy watching some movies. and then you fell alseep.

daddy and i were amazed with how brave you were. you went under beautifully and came out beautifully.

and the next day you were a dream! so much that daddy thinks you should get an mri every day. not really. he's just kidding. but you ran around like a crazy person all morning - like you were glad we actually let you run around or something. and you ate like a starving monster - like we had starved you the day before or something.

we don't have the results yet, but hopefully they come back with one beautiful looking brain. it makes sense: a beautiful brain for a beautiful girl, right? right.

i love you, you know.

thanks for being brave.

14 comments:

lmackay32 said...

You are such a cute mom! Leah is one lucky girl.

Julia said...

what an experience, mare. i'm glad everything went well considering.

that kissy picture of leah is adorable.

Ryan said...

what a brave little girl!

Amber Volle said...

Hey Maren, that was a tough post to read but thanks for putting it up. Leah is blessed to have you guys as parents. You family is always in my thoughts and prayers, especially with the MRI results to come!

dani said...

How not-fun is that? She really is so beautiful!

Alysha said...

First off, I have really enjoyed your days of gratitude. I love those with serious meaning and sincerity as well as those little simple things that carry just as much meaning, if not more!
Also, it sounds like things went as well as can be expected on the MRI which is great. Having to watch your little girl under anesthesia, however, is horrible and know that I fell apart too-it's ok.
I hope for the best possible results. :)

Karen Hauley said...

Maren, I'm so glad you got this experience documented with photos. I always think there's no possible way to forget the challenging stuff we go through, but amazingly and thankfully the pain lessens with time. However . . . it's a blessing to have actual pictures and incredible thoughts and feelings written down to help us remember the important lessons. love you.

Porters said...

oh maren...yikes! that is scary. I am glad you got to be with her before they put her under...but I feel your pain with the fasting and no sleep. We had to do it twice...her original surgery got bumped due to a power outage and we had to come back and do it all over. Then when Laneah had her eye surgery we had to just pass her off to the doctor and it was really really weird. I am glad you got all those pictures. I love what you are recording and remembering....

Rebecca Parker said...

k, i'm glad i'm not the only one who panicked when i saw luke go under anethesia...really weird feeling & hard to witness as mom, eh? the nurse had to reassure me that it was normal! thankfully i, too, have an amazing mom who happened to walk in right then with a subway sandwich for me & seemingly (although i know better) all the time in the world to sit by me during procedure=renal nuclear medicine scan. i actually cried harder when i saw the bill, so hope you have good ins...another reason to be grateful this Thanksgiving!

ed and kelli said...

oh man i love these pictures mostly the kiss face cause after bawling and imagining being there with bean and watching this happen, her goofy faces in the end made me so happy. i'm glad bean is such a brave girl. i think she will get a VERY nice christmas present from her aunt kb this year... i just hope she likes it:)

Amy W said...

My eyes are so teary, I can't finish the post! Leah is adorable and you are amazing! I am thinking of you...

carolee said...

Sweet little Leah, what a trooper you are!! :)

Joy said...

Goodness, Maren, this is very sad but sweet. I like how humorous you keep even the worst stories. Good for Leah for doing so well! We can't wait to hear more about her results!

JAZKK Low said...

LOVE the Kissy face picture after surgery! :) Hope all is well. You go Little Leah.